The Nectar of Pain

"This book was brutal to read if I am honest. I think there is a time in my life where this book would have filled me up and validated all of my thoughts. Instead when I found this book I already knew that I was not looking to think about love and heartbreak and this book solely focused on love and heartbreak. However this book hurt my brain. It was as if I was reading my own thoughts page after page after page I have thought at all before it was as if I was getting an outsider's glimpse at my own brain and it didn't feel comfortable. I could have written that at a time in my life every word of it and and that was uncomfortable. I sat through the discomfort and continued on. At time s anger slipped through her words and I realized how angry I've been and how I have disguised it. What does it mean to really move on and heal. What does it mean to heal is a question I don't know that was answered from that book but instead I think it pose that question to me. As someone who has moved on from the hurt I don't know when healing will ever end. Even at times when reading the book memories flashback to me of trauma I've never dealt with things that I had forgotten wounds that have never scabbed over. When does the healing end Will it ever? I'm done with sad poetry for the moment but I will keep this on my shelf. I did find there were times that it reminded me to smile or reminded me of how beautiful the love of a mother can be I hope this book pushes me to be better and to be more grateful for what I have."